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I met with my Oncologist, Dr. Craig Kovitz at MD Anderson here in Clear Lake.

I have Invasive Ductal Carcinoma III. He said he felt that most likely I would need a full mastectomy due to the size of the mass, but he did say that once he and the other oncologists and surgeons view all of the images of my mammogram, MRI and sonogram, plus after they test the rest of me to be sure there is no other cancer going on other than my breast, then they'll make their recommendation (or several if there is a possibility of a lumpectomy vs mastectomy) and we go from there.

I've contacted my plastic surgeon and should hear back from his office tomorrow. Maybe I can have reconstructive surgery at the time of mastectomy, or I may have to wait a year or so. There is a lot still up in the air right now.

I also went by Becky's Wig & Mastectomy shop and was stunned at the amount of wigs....thousands!!!!! I found a few that look ok, but a wig is a wig. I don't know what's going to be more stressful, the loss of one of my pretty she-bits or being a fucking baldy. I think if it wasn't for the baldness it was sure as hell be much easier to take. Well, looking on the brighter side at least there are wigs to be had that really don't look too shabby. I can grow another boob, I know it won't be a match, but shit.....

I've become upset a few times and cried and asked Tad if this is going to have an affect (as in our sex life), and he said "Penny, I didn't marry you because of the bag of meat you happen to walk around in."

That made me laugh.

I'm so lucky. I hope my luck holds out and the rest of me is clean.

I'll update again when I know more.