I'm doing very well considering

I think my mind set is getting better. Plus I've been looking at post mastectomy pictures for a long while now so I'll be as prepared as you can be just looking at pics, for what I'm going to look like. What I'm focusing on now is food. Organic produce and such and cutting back on red meat and ANY meat with hormones. Soy milk, tofu and soy beans are all good for cancer patients, I just have to be sure to get enough protein.

I have a vegetarian friend that's going to outline his daily eating habits so that'll be a help.

I did talk with the plastic surgeon and he said as long as radiation doesn't scar my pectoral muscle and cause it to harden, then I'll have a very good chance of a nice reconstruction. I wish I didn't have to have radiation. The side effects can be lung cancer and heart disease. Chemotherapy isn't a peach either but I've been reading non stop about all of the treatments and it looks like radiation is a fucker.

Nothing I can do about it though so I may as well chillax.

I had an EKG, pee/pregnancy test and blood test this morning, pre-op stuff.

My Oncologist called in a prescription for Lexapro so I can start taking anti-depressants to help with the shock I'm about to go through.

Tad has been absolutely incredible. We've had a blowup but we're both stressed. He's taken me to all the appt.s, and been right there in the room during everything. I am SO fucking lucky. I really think if I didn't have him I don't know that I would have done anything about this, considering the mental state I was in. I probably would have been happy about it, and it pains me to admit that. I was in horrible shape back then...

Anyway, I'm doing well and preparing myself as best I can. My sister is coming in Wed. to be there for surgery and probably boss people around. She is a trauma unit nurse in Dallas so I just know she is going to make sure everyone is on top of what they should be, poor medical staff. That's just fine with me but do NOT piss of the surgeon!