Howdy!

It's been awhile. About 8 months I think since I've written. I'll back track and fill in.

Our 2 yr anniversary, Oct. 27th, I come home to My Tad making a very romantic dinner of lobster bisque and bruscetta and he gave me lovely flowers and a very sweet card. It was so awesome. I've never had a partner make such a thoughtful effort to show me how much I'm loved. He really worked his ass off and it's one of those memories that I'll take with me when I go feet up :P

I love the shit out of my husband. I'm one lucky woman. I'm lucky in a lot of ways. He always does a hell of a lot to take care of me. I love you My Tad.

Thanksgiving The Sister, Niece, Mom And step-dad Chuck joined us and we cooked our asses off and had a really good time. The kitchen looked like a bomb hit it and Noel, Amanda and Tad cleaned up and did I ever appreciate that. I fkn HATE doing dishes but love a clean kitchen. I can be a slacker, but after all that cooking and being on chemo I was beyond bone tired.

Christmas my Mom-in law Margo and Dirty Harry (Tad's step-dad) came in and we also had my mom and Chuck over to meet them, and we had the kids too and surprised them because we didn't tell them that thier grandma and Harry were going to be with us. It was so awesome to see Margo playing with Laura and seeing Davis for the first time in years. Margo and I took loads of pictures and we all had a blast..another wonderful memory for sure. :)

I love everyone coming to our house for the holidays. They've all done so much for me trying to hold me up and make my life easier when they've been able. I like the idea that I can have everyone I love come to our house and we can have a good time and always have those memories too.

I think very soon there are going to be changes taking place and it's going to be one of the most painful times for all of us. It's very hard to write about and harder to even think about. I love my mother so much. I try not to dwell on what's happening but I know what is most likely going to take place here shortly. Then again she is in her 80's and a smoker so considering, she's been alive for a very long time, and I know I'm damn lucky to still have her in my life.

This week Tad is on his annual fishing/golf/guy trip with his uncles and cousin in Florida. I'm happy that he gets to go every year and have a kick butt time and I love hearing all about it when he comes home.

So this week is my lay around and scratch my butt and eat all the shit I shouldn't week. This Tues. I'm taking mom to Mass nursery and then to the Tea Room for lunch and then take her home because she gets so tired now. She doesn't like to be away from home for very long anyway. She's very frail these days and walks really slow. I constantly have her on my mind now and am very much aware that these times I get to spend with her are waning because her life is winding down. It's really fkn hard.

On a brighter topic..I went shopping too and really shouldn't have done that either! Screw it, I needed more new clothes and I did it relatively cheap. I had a little blow out at The Gap and Macy's last week too, but I've been able to go through my clothes and tear all of the old faded crap that make me feel ugly off the frigging hangers, stuff it all in a bag and donate it to people that need it. I've been wearing dark tops that mostly hide the radiation marks and burns, and now that the radiation is behind me I treated myself to bright shiny happy clothes that make me feel good when I wear them. I guess I've spent about $500.00 in total and have a very nice summer wardrobe now..yay!

I've been dying to take Tad to New Orleans since he's never been and I love it there. I finally made reservations the 2nd week in Nov for 6 nights at a really inexpensive B & B in the Garden Dist. right on Magazine street so FUCKING A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG I'm so excited when I think about it I damn near piss myself. 6 nights for $580.00 breakfast included?? Right on Magazine street?? In one of those gorgeous kick ass old homes??? Unbelievable! Yet it is true Precious!!!!

I invited Amanda to join us if she can since the place sleeps 4. I hope she does, she deserves time away doing something that relaxes her. She has had way too much to deal with for a very long time now and she needs a break in the worst way. I know she is going to be alright but it's going to take time to get to a better place, but I know she'll get there. She is a rare person. She can be somewhat hardcore at times, meaning very black and white, and you always know where you stand with her which is the very best way to be IMO. No bullshit, you get right away where she is and I respect the hell out of that trait. At the same times she is very understanding and can empathize with the worst of situations. She sees the worst of the worst being a nurse up in The Hood, so there isn't a hell of a lot that she hasn't been faced with from patients and their families. I'm very proud of her and love the shit out of her. I couldn't ask for a better sister. She's a hag! :~P

My niece Noel is another amazing kick ass person. She works her ass off, has the best temperament you can ask for, she is just a lovely person all the way around. She is planning to go off to A & M in Corpus soon, has a good guy as a boyfriend there, and is moving on up, and I'm so happy for her. She's going to have a very good life and her evil aunt is going to watch out for her and help support her and try to make things go as smooth as possible because sometimes life is bitch-ass hard.




My hair is growing back finally and it's almost an inch long now. The inside of my nose kept feeling funny like there were boogers up in it but what it is is NOSE HAIR growing back and I'm fkn excited about it and how gross is that?! Heh...I trimmed it too. I won't talk about the pubes and how there were three longs ones that I could have braided but I cut them off too.

I read the best book a little while back. It's one my sister read and she said it was a really good book, it's called Wesley The Owl; A Tale about an Owl and His Girl and it was amazing but very sad at times. Losing a beautiful critter is a price we all have to pay when we choose animals to be our babies and it's very very heartbreaking. She took Wesley on as a project to study the habits of a barn owl, his little wing had nerve damage when he fell out of a nest and couldn't be rehabilitated, and the author was a scientist at CalTech. It's a very interesting book and it only took me probably about 6 hrs total to read it, large easy to read print and a few hundred pages so it's not a large book.

After my shopping spree I also swung my ass over to Half Price Books and bought sTORI Telling (I know, cheesy but what the hell), A bio on Hepburn and Tracy 'An Affair To Remember', 'The Last Playboy' bio on Porfiro Rubirosa which should be really dirty, he seemed like such a fucker, 'My Life With Chaplin' by Lita Grey Chaplin should be another scorcher, and 'Remebering Princess Grace' by Life magazine..lots of pics and some previously unpublished..she was so beautiful.

So I've shopped, stocked up with books, inhaled 3 pieces of Popeye's chicken so far, caught up somewhat here on my bloggin', have the cats all fkn over me squalling because their daddy is gone, and am staring the new week on a very fun note, so good for me.

Later :)